Have you ever had a time when you had to be on, but you literally had nothing left? You know, one of those “The show must go on” moments? I had one a couple of weeks ago. I had nothing in me to give, but I had to. I just had to.
I was asked to give the commencement speech for a middle school. Though they can be a scary audience, I always say “Yes” when I can. I look at it as my responsibility to give back.
A couple of weeks ago I was going through a rough time in my personal life. My emotions were down, but I drove to the school and hoped for the best. I thought I would give it all I had. Just before I went into the school I got a devastating text. I was heartbroken. I knew I could hold it together, but inside I was hurt. Now what? What do I do? What do I say? I guess the enemy knows how to time things perfectly for his purpose.
So, while sitting in my car outside the school, I dialed up God and The Holy Spirit. I usually do anyway before a speech, but this time it was a little different. My inner dialogue was, “OK, God, Holy Spirit, I’ve got nothing. I need you to carry me on this one.” I always ask for help, and this time I needed more than help speaking through me.
I was carried. It went really well. Someone even suggested I do more commencement speeches. Kids and parents came up and thanked me. I thanked Him. “Thanks for carrying me. That was all You.”
Thank you, God for Grace, Truth, Love, and Laughter,
(Reminder, this is just a journal of my mistakes, experiences, and thoughts along with my journey to having a closer relationship to God. I do not claim to be an authority on the subject. If you want to know The Way, read The Bible.)
What church do I attend? Verve Church in Las Vegas
P.S. Thank you, especially, for grace.
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